Today I decided to write my journal here to share with my friends and future friends. I have been writing my blog at Mixi, which is Japanese social networking service. However, I felt it is limited, since it needs invitation to be a member and written in Japanese( my page). Also there is an issue about copy right. I hope here would be a better place.
I came back to Japan last Monday. I left U.S.A where I have lived for 5 years and my heart found the place to settle down, even though I wanted to stay and could have stayed longer. Why?
I missed Japan, my home. I felt it was time to go home…..
As my counselor said, there is a time to close chapter in a proper way.
It is not the last Good bye, however we have to go through it for moving on to the next chapter.
To open a new door will bring us an exciting world. Whichever positive or negative situation comes to us beyond the door is not big deal, but your excitement at the moment. When you are in front of the door, you get scared and worry about the future. However, once you decide to open it, you are full of energy and courage. Maybe confidence too. The confidence is like that you can take any responsibility for whatever comes after. The more you can give up being in a secure place, the more exciting the world becomes.
Sometimes a high expectation of yourself keeps you away from trying to open the door.
When You feel you look awkward on people’s eyes, you don’t try it.
However, I do want to listen to my voice. I want to challenge and see the new world.
That gives me an energy to live.
Whatever people think about me, I am the one who is on my side.
I like the word from my friend that is ” when you don’t know what you should do with your situation, you can ask to yourself if it is right to do it or not, because you already have the answer inside of yourself.”
why I love this word is that because if you have ears to listen to the inner voice, you can reach the right answer. Even though you will face your conflict, in a very deep place I believe that you will not be selfish. I feel happy if we can have hope to the human beings that basically people love each other and connected in a deep place. I want to believe in people.
